Friday, February 29, 2008

I wish...

When presented with the question "If you could have a conversation with anyone in history, who would it be?" I was always very selfish. I don't like history. I don't care about George Washington or Alexander Hamilton (no offense Leezer). I wouldn't want to break bread with Jesse Owens or Jesse James. If I could talk to anyone, I've always wanted to talk to myself. I wish 32 year-old Tim could talk to 5 year old Tim just to see what I was like. To see what kind of kid I was.

But now my answer is different. If I could talk to anyone it would be 15 or 25 year-old Kenslee. I would have a million questions. Am I a good dad? What could I do better? Where did I mess up and how can I fix it when the time comes? Are you happy? Are you a well-adjusted non-anti-social person unlike your dad? How beautiful are you? Do you still hate hair clips? Do you still hold a fork in one hand then eat with your fingers of the other hand? Do you still love jumping? What about Elmo? Do you still watch him everyday?

I really wish I could fast forward and see then come back and continue to enjoy everyday.

7 comments:

❉ pixie ❉ said...

I heart this post. So telling of a good (and dedicated) father.

Melissa said...

Jeebus Tim, I just finished crying over an AT&T commercial and now this?! I'm a hysterical mess now. Kenslee is such a lucky girl to have a dad like you!

JQ said...

Will you be my dad?

Laurie said...

Tim, you are a rockin dad for sure.
Kenslee and the new boy are lucky fo sho.

Oh great One said...

Aww! Aren't you just a big ole sweetie!

Leezer said...

Tim you made me cry. Because I thing about this all the time with my two daughters. Then feel guilty because while I want to know, I don't want to know also. I don't want to know about their first heart-break, their first - and hopefully last - cigarette, or losing their virginity. (Eeeewww!) I just want their precious little selves just the way they are. But I also want to know if I did o.k.

Genevieve said...

first off- adorable post.

second- Do you still hold a fork in one hand then eat with your fingers of the other hand?
If she's still doing that at 15 and/or 25 I think you're gonna have some serious problems...